It’s a funny thing… this blog. If I wait long enough, I tend to say the same things over and over. I’m sorry about that. I know there is some sort of famous quote or something about being an idiot when not learning from your mistakes.
And that’s where I’m at right now. Back at the beginning of sorts. Being an idiot.
I feel like a broken record. Advance a little and then skip back to that place where I was stuck so many times before.
Why don’t I change? I don’t know. Can I change? I’d like to think so. Will I change? GAWD I HOPE SO.
It’s *that* day for me again. My “weight” day. The day I walked into the Weight Watchers center a number of years ago and the day I celebrated losing all of the weight as well.
And it’s here again. December 3. Now a date I look at and see myself as a failure.
Why? Because I’m nearly back to my original weight.
I feel like I *WANT* to change. I know I *NEED* to change. It’s just that habits die hard. I continue to eat the carbs and the candy because they are everywhere. I have no good reason for it all. I just eat… because.
On Sunday I was talking to a friend and saying that I would be starting “tomorrow” with tracking and exercise. It’s now Tuesday night and I haven’t done any of that.
What I have been doing is staring at this… found on my phone’s “lock” screen.
I have to quit making the today’s… tomorrow’s.
I just wish I knew how I was going to do it.