After the week I had last week, and knowing that I really had to start being honest with myself and others ALL the time (rather than when I wanted and/or chose to)… I decided last night that I was changing. I’m not exactly what prompted the “I’m changing thought in my head”… but it came and stayed.
It might have been around the time that I read this…
I haven’t been determined about much of anything in the past few months. Or the last couple years for that matter. It’s just tough when you believe something is going to happen and it just doesn’t. It’s tough when you believe that change is around the corner and then nothing seemingly looks any different day to day. Or you feel that rejection is still surrounding you.
But that all changes now.
I’ve been listening to the song “Gratitude” by Nichole Nordeman quite a bit lately. It’s been giving me a perspective that I really need to be grateful – even in the tough times, the times that things seem so desperate, and the times that feel the darkest. (If you want to listen to the song, click below.)
I’m going back to the list I created for myself more than a year ago – and really concentrating on those 101 things that make me happy. Really concentrating on being me and focusing on what I can do with determination.
So that I can go to bed each night satisfied with what I’ve done each day.
As far as things on the weight loss front… I chickened out of going to Weight Watchers again last week, and I’m pretty sure that it wouldn’t have been pretty. But today is a new day. Today I start over. And today I start to track the food again. I start to workout regularly again.
Also? Another thing that helps tremendously is having accountability partners. After last week’s post, Lena reached out to me and since then we’ve been checking in with each other about our water intake and how we’re feeling throughout the day. It really does help to have someone to go to when you are feeling down (or feeling awesome) about something. If you want to join us… just look us up on twitter (I’m @dutchbeingme and Lena is @elenka29).
BlissDom is 24 days away and I want to feel confident when walking into that hotel.
I want to feel like myself.
And I want to keep that feeling going for a long time to come.