I want to be me again…

I wrote this a couple of months ago when I was really struggling with my health and my happiness. Even though it didn’t take me 5 minutes to write today, it did back then… and I think it’s a really good thing for me to post today.

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I might lose your respect.

I might lose my dignity.

I might lose some friends.

 

I have to surrender something I thought would be good for my life.

I found out the hard way that this isn’t something I excel at – at all. Not one bit.

I learned a lesson and need to give this up for the sake of my sanity.

 

I want to be whole.

I want to be alive.

I want to be me again.

 

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Comments

  1. I think we all feel like this at one time or another…I myself and going through some sort of identity crisis. I am mom all the time and it’s tiring. I hope you find you soon!

  2. Oh Julie. It sounds like you’re still struggling. I hope you are doing okay. I know balance is so important and I hope you find yours, even if it means giving up something. It may only be temporary.

  3. I hope you can find your way back. xo

  4. Jenn @ South of Sheridan says:

    Maybe shedding the excess layers (some “friends”, etc) is the best way to get back to yourself. *hugs* Sending lots of love your way.

  5. If you feel that there is something holding YOU back then it’s probably time to let go. Be you.

  6. ohhh, I like this. Very bold – very honest. Authentic. I can feel your “being” in these words.

    Thank you for having the courage to post this here today.

  7. Change can be so difficult, even if we know that changing is in our best interest. Sometimes it is even more scary because of that, because I have to learn to allow myself to be whole. (At least this is how it is for me.) Good luck.

  8. Though I don’t know your circumstances, what you’re saying resonates. I’ve definitely been there, in my own way. I hope you’ll find certainty – or if you have that already, courage. And then support and encouragement and acceptance.

  9. First, thank you.

    I feel less alone in how I feel about a few relationships going on in our lives.

    I was real. I was honest. And I stopped letting people walk all over me. And now, there’s this animosity. There are literally “groups” of three to eight people who are tight-knit who all officially”hate” me. And I don’t think I care as much as I used to. Mostly because (and I’m pretty positive of this answer) they suck.

    I decided a long time ago that since I only get one shot at this life, I’m going to make it good. I’m not abandoning what I feel is right to succumb to other’s ideas. And i’m certainly not sacrificing my happiness for the sake of being polite. I know that probably sounds like I’m a horrible person. I give a lot. I have a good heart. But there are people who do and will take advantage of that. I guess I draw the line. You get one chance with me. After that, consider that bridge burned. Torched. And the he** I’ll let your rebuild it.

    I guess your words really hit home with me tonight!! Definitely unleashed the fury in me!!

    But you know what … I needed it. Thank you!

  10. Amen, friend. Your life is YOURS and no one else’s, and you have to live it for you. I hope your path is getting a little easier? Many hugs…and many thanks, as well.

  11. oh how i relate. beautiful words!

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